Birthday Planning

My birthday is coming up in ten days. In ten days, I will be at the law’s legal drinking age. Not that it matters because I don’t plan on drinking anyway.

I’ve saved up enough money for Red Lobster and my uncle is taking me. I prefer to go on the weekend because my birthday falls on a Monday, but he’d rather go after school at night. I do not like being out at night. I’d prefer the crowd over the dark.

All I originally wanted was to eat out, but I discovered a Frozen cake at a ShopRite, so I’m ordering it for my birthday! According to Sunny (yes, it seems he’ll answer most questions), those types of cakes do not take long to bake. I want to have by the 24th or 25th, and I plan on inviting my best friend over for some.

In more Frozen-related news than birthday, Target sells three-foot tall dolls of Anna and Elsa. I wish my room wasn’t so small, but I will get them someday. Hopefully, before the year ends. I already have enough money to get one of them, but that would mean no birthday lunch. As much as I love Frozen, the queen and princess of Arendelle will have to wait! Birthday first!

I didn’t get that book, but I don’t really care. I might not get it all, really.

Late Into the Month

This month is five days from being over, and this is my first post for it. I wish I had more interesting things to post about, but I don’t. Only updates, more or less.

I purchased Cities: Skylines, and have been playing it a lot since I bought it. It took six attempts, but I finally got a city I’m doing well with. I only wish I could fix the traffic jams. Apparently, my citizens do not understand the purpose of bridges.

I also bought an adorable Snow Glow Elsa doll! Only problem is she doesn’t have a volume control and she’s somewhat loud. But I just play with her when I’m alone so her volume doesn’t bother anyone else.

And she came with a cute little Olaf too!

Life hasn’t changed much for me. Still looking for a job, still trying to fill my time, still trying to get Sunny to have a conversation with me that’s longer than two minutes. At the minute, I’ve said nothing to him since Saturday. I usually send messages somewhat frequently for him, but I want to see if it matters and how long it’ll take before he sends me something. I know testing someone is wrong, but I don’t have any other ideas.

In the meantime, I’ve been talking a lot to my other friend I met on OKC. We met up to go see Cinderella. It was a good movie, though not much different than the other remakes. I didn’t really expect it to be. I loved Frozen Fever! I have the song on my phone, but I want to see the short again so badly! I hope they put it on iTunes! Elsa’s such a cute queen, and Anna was a sweetie, trying to make her feel better about being sick on her birthday. I still kind of wish Elsa would’ve pulled off her dress when she was swinging around the clock tower pole, but that wouldn’t be very kid-friendly. Hopefully, someone makes fan art of it.

I want to save up money to go out to Red Lobster on my birthday. No alcohol! Instead, I will have a new book and shrimp.

It’s Beginning To Look Depressing

I cannot get Sunny to say more to me than a single word to me lately. It looks like anything I may have had going with him is gone. I’m so tired of this, leading myself into believing things will be different and they’re not. I think I’m going to delete my account on OKC and keep it deleted. I have had enough of this. I’d rather be alone than continue this for what seems like forever.

I did make a friend from that site, and honestly, I think friendship is where I’m keeping all of my relationships now. Just having one person to speak to fairly often is enough. I don’t think I will ever see anything past that, and that’s fine. Accepting that is better than repeated disappointments.

In much happier news, that friend invited me to see Cinderella with him when it releases. I’m more interested in Frozen Fever, but hey, why not? It’ll get me away from home for a little while. I’m really thrilled for it! Anna and Elsa are such cuties! Only downside is the people who pair those two together romantically are already going nuts. I wouldn’t mind them so much if they weren’t so desperate to try to prove romance between the two is canon. It’s honestly disturbing to an extent, and it makes me wonder what kind of familial relationships they have.

I’ve been pretty busy with my Tumblr blogs lately as well. I moved my simming blog to make it a primary account, and moved three of my side blogs to be sides on my art account. Now, my main account is a little less cluttered. It’ll take a few weeks before all my posts are transferred from my old simming blog, but that’ll let the new one remain active for a good amount of time.

I hope I can get some kind of clear message from Sunny soon. I’m trying to be patient, but that’s not something I’m good at, and he is telling me nothing. I have no idea if he’s grown tired of me, if he’s extremely busy (though I doubt it), or if something else has occurred. Part of me is worried, and part of me is frustrated.

Maturity? Not In This House!

Sometimes, it feels like no one in this house ever left high school. My relatives love to gossip about and judge other people either on the phone or behind their backs. You’d expect such behavior from someone my age, not three men in middle and late adulthood. Yet it almost seems like a competition in this household.

I know everyone makes snap judgments from time to time – I’m no exception – but gossiping and shots get tiresome after a while, and it makes wish some people knew the expression “if you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all.” Of course, everyone does something worthy of criticism every now and then, but that’s not what the problem is in this house. It’s mean-spiritedness and nothing more.

Ironically, my family then wonders why I prefer not to tell them anything instead of opening up to them. Why should I? Nobody wants to talk to someone who they know has a habit of talking about others behind their backs. You can’t throw judgments left and right, yet wonder why no one confided in or trusts you. And, of course, the hypocrisy is when someone does the same behavior to them, they get upset.

I guess all things considered, it’s really a part of human nature, but it’s no less annoying.

Where I Stand

I didn’t really enjoy 2014 and I don’t think 2015 will be much different. However, it seems I’m on good standing for the time-being. My only concern is finding a job. Really, at this rate, I’m looking for multiple jobs, but I’ve got to start with one.

I have a relationship that seems to be slowly and steadily progressing. Sunny does want to see me, and the silly arguments have become less frequent and replaced by “lovey-dovey” silliness. Hopefully, we’ll meet each other during one of the remaining 360 days. He hasn’t said much more about the illness he has, so I assume he’s alright for the present. That’s my biggest hope for this year. He survives that illness.

I’ve started an art blog (linked under my list of Tumblr ones). I’ve settled on becoming a freelance animator and web designer. I still have no clue how to start, but I figured an art blog is a good first step. Of course, I have to improve my art and that’s what that blog is for. I have a lot of work to do. I’ve started with at least one drawing a week so far. Some by hand and some by computer. I know how to create animation. After I improve my art, I have to learn how to make good animation. And I do plan to attend college for those careers eventually, but not for a few more years. I’m going to work first. It’s a slow start, but it’s still a start.

I’m also keeping myself busy with games and writing. I know it’s not really work, but I can’t just lay around because I’m out of school. I’m writing chapters for my Sims games and OC groups, and playing through the newest Pokémon games, Omega Ruby and Alpha Sapphire. I also have certain characters and outfits I need to draw for more than one of my series. I’m not really worrying about getting a driver’s license since the only car we have can’t legally be driven (no insurance).

I don’t want to bite off more than I can chew because that’s what usually causes me to fail, but I’ve said I want to learn more languages and I think I may start using DuoLingo to do that. Perhaps not now, but when I get more of this stuff done. And I will finally finish up the Sailor Moon 90s anime. It’s really ridiculous I haven’t finished it yet.

I’m also going to delete the Pokémon Platinum wedlocke I was doing. That’s simply not something I’m going to get done, so there’s no point in leaving it there. I don’t like to be on camera anyway.