Game Over

Let’s run down the list of men I’ve had the pleasure of meeting from OKC. None will be named.

  • Three who I met once and never heard from again, one of whom I had a very unpleasant experience with and I will never engage in that particular activity.
  • One who wanted me for literally nothing more than sex, one who I cut off, reconciled with months later, and was dumped by for being too nervous and twitchy.
  • One who I had a one month long relationship with that he ended because he wanted to solely focus on school.
  • One who I never met in person because it seemed there was never a good time, and arranging even one meet-up for a day was apparently complicated.
  • Finally, one who I’ve been seeing regularly since March and still am. I’ll talk more about him later.

Now, I won’t pretend I didn’t get good times out of the ones in the middle. When the problems were aside for a while, I genuinely was glad to know them and have them in my life for the period of time they were. However, all of the above, with the exception of the last one, brings me to this conclusion: Dating sucks!

I would not repeat any of those experiences if I had the chance, but the upside of having them is I’ve learned a couple of things from each. Really, the unpleasant activity I mentioned probably had the strongest lesson, which was do not let your curiosity get the better of you! That’s literally the only reason I did it. Yes, stupid, I know.

I’m glad I waited until I was an adult to jump into this game, however. I really can’t say any of these are experiences I would’ve wanted to have when I was still in my teens, even if I was 16 or 17. While I don’t believe I would’ve been more easily influenced, I do believe they would’ve had a greater negative impact than they did. Not to mention I would’ve given up much sooner and probably wouldn’t have met who I’m with now due to age difference (18yrs w/ 16yrs = jail time!). Sure, I wouldn’t have known him, but since I do, I’m happy I stayed out of the game until later.

Sims 4: Snobbery

It’s not an expansion, game, or stuff pack, but it may as well be.

There’s a new patch for Sims 4 today that introduced half-walls and the ability to lock doors (which a mod had been created for months earlier). A lot of people are happy about it and that’s good. The problem is their attitude toward those of us who aren’t so happy and don’t care about it.

These people have the idea that simply because something is free, nobody should be allowed to complained and everybody is supposed to feel the same way they do about it. A ton of things in life are free, but still get complaints.

The sun is free and helps every living being on Earth remain alive, yet people complain it’s too hot or too bright. Rainwater is free, yet people complain about rainy days and not being able to go out. Love is free, but people still complain about and get mad at their loved ones. Having the body you have to reside in is free, but people complain about it, even if it’s not sick or injured. I don’t know what world these people live in where everywhere free should disallow complaints, but it doesn’t exist.

More so, I hate how snobbish these players are. I don’t like Sims 4 (anymore), but I don’t go around expecting everybody to feel how I do. They’re entitled to their feelings, but what on Earth makes them believe everyone else’s emotions should be identical to theirs? The world doesn’t work that way. Everyone is not going to feel the same way about the same thing. Perhaps instead of telling everyone else to grow up and be grateful, they should grow up and stop acting like they rule the gaming world and no one else is allowed to feel differently than they do.

I actually have more problems with the players than the game itself. The game is bothersome to an extent, yes, but nowhere near as much as its snobbish fan base. The snobbery turns me away from the game more than any of the problems I personally have with it. I had honestly been considering reinstalling the game because I miss the build mode and Create-a-Sim aspects of it, but after encountering these conceited fans, I want nothing to do with Sims 4 or its fan base. Sure, it’s nothing new – I’ve gotten plenty of hateful remarks and messages thrown at me for how I feel about the game before it even released, and so did many others – but it’s no less aggravating. Not to mention the official forums go so far as to outright allow these people to bully others and break the rules simply because they feel less than enthusiastic.

Goodbye, Sims 4

I talked about Sims 4 before on this blog, when I got some hate thrown at me for not being excited about the game. I can’t say I was wrong. To me, this game is a mess.

I did like it for a while, but it couldn’t hold my interest. Even when I did like it, I could only play it for 2-3 hours. Eventually, the time I could enjoy it lessened and it reached the point where this game was making me yawn within 5-10 minutes of playing. Creating sims, building, and moving things around were fun, but playing with them? No.

I’ve uninstalled it and I don’t miss it at all. I’m not interested in anything for it simply because no amount of new content can fix most of my problems with the game. Continue reading

I’m Scared

There. I said it.

What am I scared of? A lot of things, but this in particular.

I’ve been struggling so much about what to do regarding college and reading things like this only confirms my fears.

Science-related subjects are considered to be the most lucrative careers that exist.  I’ve never heard anyone speak lowly of pursuing these degrees and, in my experience, you’re told you’ll always have a job because they’re in high demand. When people say they got college degrees and still can’t find work or are stuck in dead-end jobs, it’s typically assumed they got a “useless” degree, such as something in art, philosophy, or gender studies.

This just tells me you can work hard and still not get anywhere. It seems like it doesn’t even matter. I already fear returning to college for a degree and ending up right back where I started, but what I want to major in is art-related. To go for something in STEM and still end up right back where I started? I’d kick myself for the rest of my life.

On top of that, I’ve been told there are many different paths to success, but I can only find three. Go to college, go to trade school, or find a job and work your way up. I’ve heard of trade school being more profitable than college, especially because you’re not saddled with debt for an extremely long time, but I can’t think of a single trade I’d be capable of. If web design or art/animation were a trade, I’d go for one of those, but unfortunately, they’re not. I’ve also heard, unlike college, you cannot get financial assistance for trade school. You have to pay for it out of your own pocket. I’m still unemployed, so that’s not possible. My only option is finding a job, which I am having a very hard time with.

The only thing I’m sure of right now is that I am a terrible adult. I cannot figure anything out. I’ve been an adult for three years now and I still have no clue how to be one. I’m already upset that I can’t avoid debt, meaning I will owe someone or something money for as long as I live, and I’m honestly afraid I am always going to be in this position. If I end up going back to school, I want that venture to pay off. Not to throw shots at anyone, but I do not want to end up like my mother, going back to school multiple times in an attempt to better my life and getting nowhere except into more debt.

It’s terrifying and I know adults are supposed to do everything themselves (pretty much the point of being an adult), but I wish I had someone to guide me through all of this and help me get somewhere. I don’t know where I am or what I’m doing or how I’m going to get myself anywhere except where I’m already at. I know what I want. I can’t figure out how to get it. I wish adulthood came with a manual for these situations.

Really, all I want is not to be so useless. Clearly, I’m not doing that well.